Not sure how long since I'm away from home and somehow I couldn't remember it. Gotta be at least 4-5 years, or even more. I've been away because I think that Home is somewhere else, only to find out that the true home is the one I have found. Life has an interesting way to teach me. Or all of us.

I need to tidy up my home for sure, there's dust everywhere, things that I no longer need, or things that doesn't serve any purpose now that I've changed. That's a good thing though, that I've changed. I wouldn't want to be a still water.

I got my coffee ready and I'm sleepy now. I didn't manage to sleep well last night even after taking magnesium pill (maybe I should take two?). Nah, no. Like any other start (or restart), there will be a time for imbalance first and we need to push through. It's part of the process, so coffee and my loyal L-Theanine.

I wouldn't say everything in chaos though. My definition of Chaos is if I can't control my internal, not external. Let me do pillar check now (more on this later).

  • Soul: solid
  • Physical: not my best but can be easily adjusted back
  • Financial: not really good, but still good compared to the earlier version of me. Plus, I got my confidence and my clarity :]
  • Intelligence: Been awhile since I consume quality materials, can easily adjusted back as well
  • Relationship: This one is rather complicated and my best move is to see it as an umbrella, better for me.
  • Emotional: Yesterday was terrible, but today? Superb (in Curie's voice)

so, PFR (Physical / Financial / Relationship) is on amber. I'll see myself to the gym again, perhaps alternating with swimming? I love swimming much, but it's cardio. Ah well, that's okay. I'll swim when I want to swim, even on the days I go to gym.

Financial wise, it ties with Intelligence and Emotional. I can only work if I got those two in order (plus basic bio needs). It's gonna be a wild ride though to crank up the financial area!

Relationship, I'd rather to see it from umbrella terms, as in one big area containing friends, social (media?), family, and everything else. Accepting the world as it is, and not how I want it to be. Also, the social media part is surprising actually, in a good way.

What should I do first today? Write the damn article for sure. It's been sitting there for ages. I know I will have to face my own laziness but I'll handle that. I have the perfect name for laziness so everytime I invoke it I'd remember ;)